It take approximately 500 lbs to crush a human skull. But the human emotion is a much more delicate thing.Take Solveig , my first "real" love.I never thought it was going to be similar to a car crash. I've slammed the breaks, and I'm skidding toward an emotional impact. So, are they all my fault?
New year 2011, i miss her so much. no one can understand how i felt in new year, im so sorry about myself and about her.I promise to myself that i will spent at least 1 new year eve with her. i deserve it.
I love her, so probably,im gonna make our dreams true, and then if one day she will be alone, i can invite her to our dreams, or im gonna invite another person to my own dream, but i wish she will be there. i think if she reads my scripts, probably she is gonna laugh at me, or tease me. But there is a thing that no one can tease it, its true love, i think this is true love, i wish we can be together in future, but its just a wish not hope. but im sure about myself, if i really want something, i will get it for sure,it has happened in whole my life.
I wrote my best songs in Poland for her, and now im making movie, short movie, i wrote scripts to director and she loves them, its a short movie. also i asked for concert in Sweden in University, so im gonna be busy.i will get my guitar, after a week.anyway i have opportunity to apply for Phd, but i cant decide yet, but i will do it in Sweden, im not sure what should i do.
i have so many problems nowadays and sometimes they make me crazy, i have insomnia, i have nightmares, and i cant focus on my study, but im trying my best. im strong enough to deal with these kind of problems.
There are lot of girls here they want to hang out with me, i try to hang out with them but without feelings, im like a robot now. its funny . im gonna make our dream home and our dreamed future......and wait for someone to join me, i hope she will.......
