I've seen so many people who is living in their own small world, full of lies full of loves full of greed .... i tried to talk to them to show them there is a door and they can go out of this world and see so many other worlds, but they didn't want to maybe they afraid of facing new world with new facts with new rules, these kind of people dont know what they want in their life, they prefer little small world instead of real world.
I was thinking sometimes i want to be in my own world but i cant stay forever i should see i should feel new worlds with new thoughts.
Sometimes lies are more and more sweeter than truth, so we can live with lies happily or we can live with truth sadly, what is your choose? i think this is sort of dehumanization and sort of self deconstruction behavior to live with lies, even they if they know this is lie , but they are not brave enough to admit it so they prefer to blame someone else or just tell another lie to themselves.but one day they will face the truth and then there is no sweet taste left and its gonna get bitter and bitter until they feel that they should change somehow.
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Broken Skull
It take approximately 500 lbs to crush a human skull. But the human emotion is a much more delicate thing.Take Solveig , my first "real" love.I never thought it was going to be similar to a car crash. I've slammed the breaks, and I'm skidding toward an emotional impact. So, are they all my fault?
New year 2011, i miss her so much. no one can understand how i felt in new year, im so sorry about myself and about her.I promise to myself that i will spent at least 1 new year eve with her. i deserve it.
I love her, so probably,im gonna make our dreams true, and then if one day she will be alone, i can invite her to our dreams, or im gonna invite another person to my own dream, but i wish she will be there. i think if she reads my scripts, probably she is gonna laugh at me, or tease me. But there is a thing that no one can tease it, its true love, i think this is true love, i wish we can be together in future, but its just a wish not hope. but im sure about myself, if i really want something, i will get it for sure,it has happened in whole my life.
I wrote my best songs in Poland for her, and now im making movie, short movie, i wrote scripts to director and she loves them, its a short movie. also i asked for concert in Sweden in University, so im gonna be busy.i will get my guitar, after a week.anyway i have opportunity to apply for Phd, but i cant decide yet, but i will do it in Sweden, im not sure what should i do.
i have so many problems nowadays and sometimes they make me crazy, i have insomnia, i have nightmares, and i cant focus on my study, but im trying my best. im strong enough to deal with these kind of problems.
There are lot of girls here they want to hang out with me, i try to hang out with them but without feelings, im like a robot now. its funny . im gonna make our dream home and our dreamed future......and wait for someone to join me, i hope she will.......
New year 2011, i miss her so much. no one can understand how i felt in new year, im so sorry about myself and about her.I promise to myself that i will spent at least 1 new year eve with her. i deserve it.
I love her, so probably,im gonna make our dreams true, and then if one day she will be alone, i can invite her to our dreams, or im gonna invite another person to my own dream, but i wish she will be there. i think if she reads my scripts, probably she is gonna laugh at me, or tease me. But there is a thing that no one can tease it, its true love, i think this is true love, i wish we can be together in future, but its just a wish not hope. but im sure about myself, if i really want something, i will get it for sure,it has happened in whole my life.
I wrote my best songs in Poland for her, and now im making movie, short movie, i wrote scripts to director and she loves them, its a short movie. also i asked for concert in Sweden in University, so im gonna be busy.i will get my guitar, after a week.anyway i have opportunity to apply for Phd, but i cant decide yet, but i will do it in Sweden, im not sure what should i do.
i have so many problems nowadays and sometimes they make me crazy, i have insomnia, i have nightmares, and i cant focus on my study, but im trying my best. im strong enough to deal with these kind of problems.
There are lot of girls here they want to hang out with me, i try to hang out with them but without feelings, im like a robot now. its funny . im gonna make our dream home and our dreamed future......and wait for someone to join me, i hope she will.......
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